Its day 2 of my new job and I’m exhausted. Last night I was sicker than a dog. I have no clue why. I think I really may have IBS or an ulcer or something, because these “episodes” are getting more frequent and have brought me to a whole new level of scary. I was sweaty and chilled last night. I went to bed wrapped in my hoodie, shaky as hell. My head hurt, I had shooting pains in my gut. I felt like I was reenacting the scene from Alien, waiting for a tiny green monster to come shooting out of my belly.
At about 2 am, I refused to consider calling in to work. I was GOING TO BE BETTER BY MORNING. LB climbed into bed with me at about 5 am, so I figured I might as well get up and see if I could maintain a lucid state. I got out my morning injections and held the needle over my belly for about 5 minutes. I thought about the evil gurgling pain underneath the skin, daring me to stick a pin in it. I thought about the soon-to-be mom in California, praying that her unknown single mom donor was following directions so she could finally get a positive pregnancy test.
3 weeks to go.
I weakly managed to scrape my windshield, get the toddler dressed and fed, pack her pajamas (per Blondie’s request), drink some green tea and get to daycare before passing out at the wheel. Upon entering the office, my new boss exclaimed “Yay! We didn’t drive you off after the first day.”
I nibbled on some toast at lunch, but I’m really thinking about going home after work and taking a nap while LB is at her dad’s. I turned in my 30-day notice and last month’s rent today. Now I wait for the federal lease-break guillotine to begin.
Of course I had to use a stove/cooking analogy in my last post, and here’s our horoscope for today:
Moon joins with Aquarius so that can make today a HIGHLY EMOTIONAL DAY! Especially if it is about community or collective energy where you have to cooperate with a group. Uranus has stressful aspects so things can come flying out of seemingly no where. In fact, this situation has been boiling and stewing for quite a bit now. It just boils OVER the pot lip today. But, fess up, haven’t you been a bit annoyed for a while already?
‘Nuff said.
Orbital Astrology 
That horoscope is dead on for what I am dealing with today!!! I’m sorry you are feeling so sick and so exhausted. I hope that today is better and that you get to feeling well soon.
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Hope you get to feeling better soon! Something always goes wrong for me when I start a new job…you know, when you’re trying to make a good impression and don’t want to call in. When I started my last job, I was honest with them at the interview about the fact that I was pregnant but I assured them that with my first baby I worked right up until the day he was born (literally, my water broke while I was on my way to work and I stayed on the phone with them the whole time I was in labor!) To my surprise, they hired me in spite of the pregnancy, and two weeks later I was put on complete bed rest. That was a fun phone call!
I love the boiling over reference!
Get some rest while LB’s away this afternoon and do what you have to to make it to the weekend. Sending all the positive thoughts I can your way.
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Sorry things have been bad this week. Hope you feel better. What crazy timing for everything. (New job and the egg donation thing.)
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Hang in there momma!
Sorry to hear about the sickness, is it injection induced?
The flu’s going around my house so…..
Get some well deserved rest!
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Great post hang in there and just take care of yourself, it could be an ulcer but usually no shooting pains, could be something else, just be good to yourslef and take care…
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For what it’s worth (not much), my lawyer friends says that he sees broken lease cases all the time in small claims court and all the landlord can really do is keep your deposit and not give a good reference. Unless you actually signed a lease with a specific agreement to pay that crazy amount if you left early.
If they try anything, I’d have a lawyer draft a letter to them, saying that there is no signed agreement requiring you to pay that fee and call their bluff. They don’t want to pay good money to go after you if you can’t afford to pay them anyway; it’s silly. They’re just trying to intimidate you.
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Sorry you were feeling well! Could it not be the injection meds??
Will hold thumbs that it all works out with the flat!
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Wow.
I am in awe at your strength…
I hope you feel better soon.
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I am so sorry to hear about you not feeling well. I hope you feel better soon! I can’t imagine not feeling well and doing the hormones. I admire you for your strength continuously! I miss you so much! I am glad that you decided to get the new apartment… I think this is a new beginning for you and LB! Give her a hug and kiss please! xoxoxoxox
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I thought the same thing as another poster–could it be the hormones that are making you sick?
Getting sick on the first days at a job would totally happen to me, too. It probably has, I just blocked it out my memory.
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I’m wondering too, if it’s the hormone’s.
I remember I got strep throat once, on day two of my job. It was mortifying. Get better soon sweetie. *HUGS*
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Hope you’re feeling better today!!!
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Hope you are feeling better. Good luck with everything- The rent, injections, work. That is pretty telling what your horoscpe says after the stove analogy. Today my horoscope is more along the lines of a Taurus although I am technically an Aries. I am on the cusp (I’m pretty sure)but sometimes I am under Aries.
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Aw, I’m so sorry you’re feeling bad =( I hope today is going better! Love you!
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If your tummy troubles don’t improve you might like to check out the Specific Carbohydrate Diet. It works for a huge number of people but is demanding and requires fairly religious adherence. My hubby cured his tummy troubles from literally the very first day on the diet. There is a book about it by Elaine Gottschall called “Breaking the Vicious Cycle” and support groups on Yahoo.com. Also http://www.breakingtheviciouscycle.info Best of luck.
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