I’ve hit a rut with potty training. Its reached the point where LB likes using the potty, will tell me when she has done it in her diaper, she likes getting stickers every time she uses the potty, and will go pretty much every time I put her on there. She is happy with this progress, and so am I.
However, she still wears diapers, thus making her “accidents” a normal part of her day, and not really a big deal. The potty training regimen that daycare has provided for me, demands a complete ban of diapers all together. They even frown upon training pants (which I just spent $75 on), insisting I should go straight to thin cotton underpants that older kids wear.
Let me just say that they don’t even make cutesy girly panties in 18-24 month size. I had to special order training pants in LB’s size alone.
So last night, I took the plunge and put her in the brand-spanking new training pants. I made a huge deal (like the book tells you to) about having “big girl undies” and how awesome it was. LB liked them, but didn’t really understand that she couldn’t pee in them like a diaper.
I tired making her sit on the potty every 30 minutes, but I had the worst timing, failing to prevent an accident ALL EVENING. The new training pants were soaked, I was frustrated and LB was getting more and more upset as the night went on.
By the time I put he down to bed, she was clingy and whiny. She refused to lay down when I left the room. By 8:30 she was hysterically screaming. I don’t even think she remembered why she was screaming. By 9:00 I could hear her going hoarse.
I sat downstairs, trying to ignore her. I kept running through the comments I received at daycare this week, “She had an emotional day” “She woke up from her nap crying” “She refused to eat breakfast” “She is sooooo sensitive!” and felt like absolute sh**.
I want my daughter to be brave and strong, not whiny and emotional. Am I turning her into a kid with issues already? Is she that kid who makes the adults roll their eyes, and not want to be around? Am I spoiling her? Do I give her too much attention? Is she destined to be one of those “only children” who can’t share her toys or relate to other kids?
In 6 months, LB will be the same age I was when my sister was born, and I wish with all my heart I could give her a sibling. I wish she could have what my sister and I have. Sometimes I wonder if she is lonely, bored or not stimulated enough by living with only me.
Lets just say the “tough mommy” routine failed miserably by 1:30 am, since LB did not sleep more than an hour at at time after that, and I resorted to letting her sleep next to me. At 4:00 am, she no longer wanted to sleep in my bed, so I sat on the couch, holding her in a blanket, and eventually fell asleep sitting up.
Ugh I am spineless.