alone, mini-breakdown, scary, sick, single mama

Ok so maybe it wasn’t the cottage cheese

I spent almost all of Friday night yarfing, so I’m thinking there might have been a bug crawling around LB’s daycare after all. It took me all Saturday to regain my strength, which sort of sent me into a mini-panic about my move in 11 days.

I came to this conclusion:

I can NEVER get sick. I can NEVER get hurt. I can NEVER do anything that will result in me passing out/being incapacitated in any way.

Why? Because I will be the only one there. Who will be able to watch LB, if I’m bowing down to the toilet all day or night? What will happen to her if I fall down the stairs and break my neck? What if I choke on a ham sandwich, who will be there to give me the Heimlich? No one.

As much as I am ready to get the hell out of my mother’s house, I must admit she is currently my safety blanket in case of emergency. If I hadn’t gotten a full day worth of rest on Saturday, I don’t know if I would have made it into to work today. If my mom hadn’t been there to watch LB, I would probably have lost an 8 hr workday so I could power-up for the rest of the week.

Don’t get me wrong. I am a competent and strong single mama. I know I can handle taking care of my child while running my own apartment. I just really need to step it up and take care of myself better (Which I think I have a head start on with the workout tree). I need to start taking vitamins, eating healthier and cut back on the wine drinkage. I know this won’t guarantee my perfect health, but it will make this soon-to-be dark, dark winter season, a little less scary.

The scale said 153.4 this morning! I guess the pukefest took its toll on mi cuerpo pretty good 😦

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3 thoughts on “Ok so maybe it wasn’t the cottage cheese”

  1. Sorry you were so sick. If you ever need anything CALL ME. You know I’ll always help (provided we don’t fall down the stairs together, while working out =) Love ya!

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  2. And when you two klutzes fall down the stairs (since clearly I don’t work out) CALL ME, seriously, any time we can possibly help, we are more than happy to!

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