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Green Chile

August 19, 2015

Guess what? Yes, I know, I actually blogged, but more importantly….. It’s that time of year again in the southwest!


I could feel the slow Capsaicin burn creeping up my fingers, making me smile at the pain that would linger on my skin for hours. This is gonna be a hot batch, I thought to myself with glee. Funny how a plant probably developed this chemical in order to keep humans AWAY from it, and yet we “put that sh*t on everything.”


slimy green chile tentacles

Ahhhh the therapeutic ritual of prepping chile:

Peeling off the blackened, fire roasted layer of skin.

Stripping the seeds off the slimy vegetable flesh; reminds me of octopus tentacles.

Pulling out the pulpy green innards…

Straight up GUTTING, Yo.

I LoOOVEEEEEEEEE chile season.❤

Positive Affirmations

March 4, 2014

Positive Affirmations

Yesterday was all doom and gloom. So here’s some enlightenment from Skeletor himself. Smile errrbody. Today will be grand!

I’m back with a Facebook rant.

February 25, 2014

Begin standard disclaimer: I know I haven’t blogged in FOREVER, yes, I suck.. blah blah.

Here’s why: I’ve been sliding deeper into the sludge of Facebook, which has been alternately emotionally & mentally unhealthy and slowly sucking away my creative writing ability. I used WordPress to express my thoughts, channel my fears and pains, connect with others and feel amazing satisfaction in the process. Facebook doesn’t give me that.  It’s become a tiny, frenzied world of competitive irritation and disgust for me, yet something I can’t stop looking at. I feel like it’s giving me OCD, and this is coming from a pretty laissez faire Hippie.

I used to blog once a day, which allowed me to actually THINK before I posted. Facebook has really brought out the thoughtlessness in humanity (and me!).  It’s so easy to constantly put sh!t on there. With a click of a button or swipe of phone, I find myself sharing CRAP all day long now. It’s not one status update, it’s Memes, quizzes, photos, songs, videos, political campaigns, contests & articles. My news feed is splashed with digital vomit. I find myself hiding people’s posts more and more often. I do my best to avoid the “like” addicts, begging me for attention.  

The worst part: I feel like Facebook is making me dislike my friends more, and creating a judgmental asshole out of me. But what are you supposed to do when things are posted? It’s right THERE, intended for you to respond to it in some way. It WANTS you to like it, right? That’s why the stupid “thumbs up” button is so easily clicked. There’s no “I hate this crap and I can’t believe you like it” button. Or, “Yeah that was cute the first time someone posted it, but at this point I never want to see Grumpy Cat again” button.

Please don’t get me wrong. I love my friends. I just hate how Facebook has changed our relationships, how it’s cheapened them, hyped them up, yet trivialized them into “status liking”.  It doesn’t make me feel closer to them. If anything, it makes me feel further away, especially when 50 other people have liked a status and I want to run away screaming from it. I hate how Facebook has worked its way into face to face conversations, and how a room full of people will all be Facebooking from their phone instead of talking to each other.

Mostly… when it comes to internet crud.. I just…don’t want to know (see my Facebook theme song below)

I feel like most parents will say the reason they are on Facebook is to keep up with far away family. I know my Grandmother scans my page daily, hoping to find some photographic gem of my daughter picking her nose so she can treasure the moment forever. Once you have kids, you learn that it’s your DUTY to provide the elders with nostalgic gratification of said offspring.

So YES, I admit it serves its purpose. Sharing joyous moments and keeping connected with loved ones is valuable to me. But I don’t think 1000 baby pics should be plastered all over Facebook just because you are BORED and kid pics get tons of likes. The ease and obsessive nature driving the endless hours of Candy Crush, Farmville, meme sharing and other unimportant sh!t is what is burning me out on FB.

I guess you could argue that blogging is the same: just unimportant opinionated drivel, here only to serve my own selfish needs, ease boredom and provide myself with entertainment. The difference for me is, how I feel when I do it.  I feel good when I write something I’m proud of.  Status updates aren’t writing. They are announcements; blips of intention, some good, some bad, some totally meaningless. They are so easy to make, it’s like fast food; served and consumed and thrown away without even tasting the ingredients.

So I’m trying to slowly wean myself off Facebook. Or at least check it in moderation. It’s become difficult because so many people plan events through the website, and hardly ever communicate outside of that.  I also want to get back to being creative, because I did find a lot of joy and even actual relationships by writing this blog.  I’m friends with a lot of bloggers on FB, many of whom I’ve never met in real life, so seeing their kids grow up is kind of miraculous. It’s a treat, and I do enjoy it. So, thank you for letting me be a part of your lives.

Maybe I feel like I’ve lost some type of depth in my life, and I’m using Facebook as a scapegoat, when really I should be able to just ignore things I don’t like and control my obsessive behavior like a normal human being.

Either way.. we’ll see what happens.

Enriching your life

May 25, 2011

My mom has been writing me letters. Real letters, not email. When she wants pics of her grandchild, or make sure I’m still alive, she will call or text. Sometimes we Skype with the kid.  She decided she wanted to write letters because she felt disconnected to me. She doesn’t like the distance between us. I think my moving 400 miles away was an emotional slap in the face to her. She thinks it was physical evidence of my desire to escape her.

Anyway, over Christmas she felt I was being cold to her. I’ve never had that mother/daughter relationship where we did each others nails and told secrets to each other while brushing our hair. The more trouble I got into, the more I tried to keep her away from my problems. Eventually I had no choice but to let her help me, and since then I’ve had a hard time getting over the guilt from that.

I like to blame Astrology, so this all can be tied back to Saturn Returns. When you are 29-30 you are forced to deal with your “mommy issues” and my mother sending me a big box of stationery seems to be its materialization in my life.

A lot of things came out during our exchange, most of it painful. She’s worried about me being alone. She thinks her relationship with my dad has set me up for a life of failure when it comes to men. I don’t think she can blame herself for my screw-ups, but I was kind of scared she was right in one respect: That I was doomed.

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Someone for everyone

May 11, 2011

Yes I’ve come back. You’ve noticed? I’m still posting over at my new blog Pisces Pictures, but I miss this one. Its been here for me so long (4 years now) and somehow it’s comforting to see its face again.

I’ve also been catching up on the other single mamas who I started reading almost half a decade ago. SO MANY CHANGES! Engagements, weddings, graduations, higher education pursuits, job changes, moves, break-ups, pregnancies… it’s amazing.  The more I’ve been catching up, the more I want to make a whole post dedicated to their lives.

So here goes:

Single moms who are now married:

Single Moms who are engaged to be married

Single Moms who were engaged, but decided it wasn’t for them

Single Moms who are in serious relationships

Single Moms who are pregnant or who have had another baby

Single Moms who are pursuing degrees

I’ve kept up with these bloggers via Facebook, mostly. But some of them I’ve stopped reading their blogs and in my absence, they’ve become private or password protected. 

Now I must go and beg for forgiveness.

 I’m still single. I haven’t had a baby. I haven’t gone back to school. I don’t have much news to report. But it makes me hopeful to see everyone else moving forward. Maybe I will get there too.



The Golden Rule

May 5, 2011

I used to  believe in the Golden Rule. My hippie parents taught me to “treat people the way you want to be treated” and so I went forth into the world with the best of intentions for my fellow-man. I would show them respect and logically, I would receive it in return.

I soon realized the rule didn’t work that way. You don’t get back what you give. You can send out all the hugs and kisses and cakes and butterflies, but the world is not required to reciprocate.

This was a hard lesson for an impressionable Pisces like me. I couldn’t understand why I was being subject to so much abuse and torture from my peers. I was giving them love and understanding, they were giving me ridicule and disgust. Bullies and Opportunists preyed on my sunny disposition.  To them, if I was fool enough to let them in, it was my own fault for getting emotionally robbed.

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Safety: Know your kid.

February 8, 2011

When I was asked how to make my home safer for my child, I thought “Well, don’t have chain saws lying around or anything.” All joking aside, I know what it means to be cautious and conservative about your kid’s surroundings. Living in a custody situation where you are constantly being judged on “how good/bad a mom you are” really puts a heightened sense of awareness in your daily life.

My biggest rules:

1. Know your kid. Really. Was your kid the baby who cried when the vacuum cleaner was on, or who laughed and clapped their hands at the loud noise? Did he have a natural distaste for putting dirt in his mouth, or was he shoving it in by the spatula-full? Does she approach animals like they are big teddy bears, or does she hide behind your leg when the local German Shepard tries to sniff her?

Some kids are more courageous than others. Some contemplate longer before acting. Some are naturally shy, and some seem to have been born without fear. Which one is yours? How to balance the elements of keeping your kid safe and helping them build confidence is a tricky conundrum in the parenting world.  All of us want our children to gain independence and problem-solving skills, but that doesn’t mean throwing them into the gauntlet unprepared.

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2. Educate your kid:  One of the best things you can do is give your kid the tools to tackle the big scary world without fear and intimidation.  Let them know you trust them. But let them know there are rules to follow too.  If any of you have a 4-year-old, there’s no shortage of opportunities to answer the illustrious “WHY?” question.  Seriously, their brains are BEGGING to be educated.

My kid asked me why she had to sit facing forward in her booster car seat. My response: Because the cops will get you.  Maybe a slight dramatization but  it works.  She knows that when she’s not strapped in, or facing the correct direction, she’s breaking the law. And when you break the law, the cops come.

Again, knowing what’s important to your kid helps here. Will they be afraid if you tell them “because if we get into a wreck and you go through the windshield,  you will die” or will they think its the funniest thing ever?

3. Let the natural consequences teach the lesson of safety (when they are not dangerous!) My daughter’s booster seat has transformed itself from warm-cozy car seat, to annoying hinderance to her backseat coloring-fest, is constantly pulling on the seatbelt, trying to reach the dropped crayons on the floor. Predictably, the seatbelt will eventually be pulled out to its maximum capacity and lock, gripping her tighter than any human being enjoys. She cries and throws a fit for the remainder of the trip, but unfortunately for her, every action has a response. If she chooses to  be unsafe, the consequences are not good.

4. Know where to draw the line.  Some things need parental intervention. You know your kid’s limits, you can asses what situations will be the most dangerous. I’ve watched my daughter use knives and scissors and told her which ones are safe and what cannot be touched. I trust her to ask me before eating or drinking anything unknown.  But I do worry about other things, such as talking to strangers and wandering off in public. If you are confused about how to find a solution to a problem, make a ultimatum until you figure it out.  My ultimatum for talking to strangers is “If mom doesn’t talk to them first, then you don’t talk to them either.” 

You are the parent. You make the rules. If you don’t know the answer, make a ultimatium until you educate yourself enough to make a decision on where you stand.

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